dream come true

I can now check another thing off my bucket list....

attending a GARTH BROOKS concert!

In case you don't know he is my favorite singer ever. When his box set came out in 2005 I was one of the first to get it! :)

No doubt, it was

THE BEST concert EVER!!!
and his wife, Trisha Yearwood!!

So yesterday I had my surgery and it went well. I'm feeling fine and getting excited about the weekend.
This weekend is our churchs Christmas musical. We go to a rather large church, so it was an honor this year for us to be asked if Aiden could be Jesus at the age of 2 (when the wisemen arrived). Aiden has done very well at play practice and we are so excited to see how he will do Sat and Sun night.

results

Well after my last post lots changed. LONGGG story short:
Someone cancelled and we were actually able to get in and see the specialist yesterday. We went through all the test yesterday. They found something wrong yesterday that I will have to have surgery next week to correct. It could possibly be the cause of the miscarriages but we won't know for sure until all the other test come back. So I will be put to sleep and have surgery Thursday to hopefully fix this problem (I wouldnt go into detail- some things are better left private). We are thankful that in one day and in one test we were able to see that there is something wrong and we didn't waste our time seeing a specialist. We are thankful this problem is fixable and we continue to pray that if there are other issues that they too can be resolved.

test results

TEST RESULTS AND WHERE TO GO FROM HERE:
So we got the results of the genetic test yesterday and everything came back ok, which I expected considering I have had Aiden. I don't suppose it would be anything genetically wrong since I have carried to term. We have blood test next week to see if my levels are normal or off. I personally hope they are off so that we can get an answer. The doctor acted like there was nothing wrong and said "you should wait a month and try again and see how it goes". I was VERY VERY disappointed since I love my doctor that he was so nonchalant about it. We decided to go ahead and make an appointment the fertility doctor. The phone assitant said today "he is the best recurrent miscarriage doctor in West TN". So I feel very confident he will find the source to the recurrent miscarriage problem. Being that he is the best around we can't get in until Jan. If the blood work comes back and my levels are not normal then that will hopefully be our answer to the problem and with medication it can easily be fixed.

"Later"

Do you remember this post? In there I said "More on that later." WELL so sorry that "later" has been over a month. But like I said the doctor said he had some of the things he needed to run test as to why I have had recurrent miscarriages. Tomorrow we go back to the doctor and are praying we will get some answers. I don't know that we will for sure (when I called last week the test were still pending) but I know we will discuss why this might be happening and where to go from here. We have looked into a fertility doctor and if we don't get any results from our local doctor we will go that route. So I don't know how long this process will take but I will keep everyone updated as it goes along.

Vacation

We went on a much needed vacation to Gatlingburg this past week, wanna see? This picture is out of sequence but I couldn't fix it, sorry! Sweet Boy!

CHEEEEEESE
We actually got lots of pictures with just Aiden and me.

Nonna and Aiden

AppleBarn

Christmas Place

Pancake Pantry

Aquarium

Another CHEEEEESE moment

Still ChEEEEsing

Disclaimer: All of Aiden's shirts are made by Just Say Sew and my mom made his pants (in an attempt to teach me to make them).

fall preview

My sweet nephews ran their 1st race this weekend! Be prepared for a picture coming soon of me, my brothers, and all the kids racing.

GUILTY!!!

My wonderful mom!

MY how time flies- look at this big boy!

Josie Update

Josies surgery went well. She is in the PICU and the next hours are critical to how she will respond to the surgery. PLease continue to pray for them. Beth sent me a picture of Josie and I will spare you the tears. BUT there will be pics to come soon when the tubes are removed.

surgeries

Josie's surgery has been postponed again until next Wed.

I had my surgery this morning, everything went fine. The doctor feels he was able to retrieve some things we will need to begin looking into why this is happening. More on that later.
Surgery today was a little different from last time. I physically feel ok, not as good as last time. Emotionally I'm not so good. This morning when I checked in- I cried. I laid in my pre-op room and cried, got meds to calm down, cried again, someone would come in and comfort me so I'd calm down, they left- I cried... you get the picture. On rare occasions throughout the day I've just cried. Pretty much all I seem to do is cry.

Thanks for ya'll your prayers and kind words during this time. Unfortunately the baby had not grown and we will again have another D and C. Please just keep our family in your prayers.

patience

Patience is something I lack, but this week it has been HORRIBLE!!

• 1st- Josie's surgery has been postponed until Thursday morning. I will keep you updated!
• 2nd- We go to the doctor tomorrow for our ultrasound. Waiting 2 weeks to know if everything is ok with this pregnancy is INSANE. Patience is just now something I have this week!

Josie's surgery

So I haven't had the chance to update and let you know my best friend, Beth's, little girl Josie, which you can remember from my post here and a few post before that one, has a scheduled surgery date.

She will have open heart surgery next Wed. the 13th at 8:00am. If you have a chance to read Beth's blog you will see all the details. Please start praying now for Josie, Beth, Ashley, and the doctors.

If this gives you an idea of how much Aiden loves her. He cried last night because he couldn't go to Beth's at 8pm and see Josie. I told him he could look at her on my phone so he held it and walked around talking to Josie.

one good thing about the country

haircut needed

Aiden always wants to fix his own hair- so I let him! Thats when I realized he needs a haircut!

Notice the green cup in the background it's full of water for dipping his comb into.

update

I went to the doctor yesterday and for once in a long time we got a good report. It wasn't the results I was hoping for but the doctor said "today is a good day, this is a good report."

I will catch you up now that my nerves have calmed. You may remember last time when I went to get my ultrasound at 8 weeks, the sac was measuring 5 weeks and some days and we knew the baby hadn't developed. The doctor kept saying we need to see a fetal pole, we want to see a fetal pole.... So that word stands out in my head and if you don't know what it is then you can see here. Most of you know nothing ever changed and the sac never grew past 5 weeks and never progressed.

Anyway this time I was 6 and 1/2 weeks and started to have some problems we went in and had an ultrasound and there was a sac and yolk sac (which I did have last time too) but nothing inside and I was measuring 5 weeks 4 days. So timing was off somewhat. Of course I went into panic mode, the doctor said come back next week and we will be looking for, you guessed it, a fetal pole. Having the ultrasound yesterday nothing looked any different than last week to me and the water works began. The ultrasound tech calmed me and said look honey see that fluttering, thats good, thats something. I saw what she was talking about and so I asked will you measure the sac and see if it's grown. She put in the measurements and said it's measuring 6 weeks and 4 days. EXACTLY a week bigger than last week. The doctor told us, "well today was good we saw the fetal pole. Thats what the fluttering was- the fetal pole. He clearly said we are not out of the woods but this is progression (a word I want to hear).

So now we go back in 2 weeks to see if things progress like they should. SO PLEASE KEEP PRAYING!!

Disney on Ice

My batteries on my camera started to die as soon as we got to the show so we don't have too many pictures but heres a glimpse of "Mickey Mouse Skating at Disney on Ice" as Aiden says. Birthday Celebration

Woody and Buzz

Goofy dressed up as Santa Clause is all he has talked about

Christmas Celebration

Snow

Finale
This was his face the entire time! He loved it!

My little Mickey

prayers again

Please dear friends I need your prayers. My family is going through a really hard time again. It's the same situation that we went through before you can see here.

I never made that announcement because I wanted to make sure things were ok but since they aren't I'm telling you now and I'm asking for prayers. Things are somewhat different this time but I just don't feel like going into detail, we just ask that you pray pray pray! Too say it hurts 10 times worse this time is an understatement- we just pray that God grants my family a miracle when I go to the doctor on Monday.

i'm horrible at posting

Looking back over my post I think I've failed to mention-

AIDEN IS POTTY TRAINED!!

(actually has been for awhile now, I'm just horrible at posting)

You want to know what else he's doing:

• EVERYTHING

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